What did I need to let go of in that moment? What was I unknowingly holding onto? Lots of negativity–energies that were in opposition to truth–things that didn’t support the highest part of me. I was worried because everything in my life was changing and I had no idea why. I felt out of control, because all I saw were challenges and crises; my life made no sense. Breathtaking events were taking place all around me, and not in a good way. My husband had lost his job. My psychic work didn’t feel right to me anymore. And from a physical standpoint, I was feeling awful. It was impossible to see ever-present good when I was feeling so bad–when my life looked like a mess. Spirit was screaming at me. The whisper was louder than ever. The truth was being demonstrated all around me. I had outgrown my life; I was standing on the edge of a new beginning. This wasn’t a time to fear, it was a time to celebrate. Unfortunately, I was too busy trying to analyze and rationalize my way to my answers to notice that my life had turned into a textbook example of spiritual transformation.
All I needed to do was look within to find my way to wherever I was supposed to go. Unfortunately in my negative state I was unable to connect to my answers; I felt paralyzed and directionless.
Had I quietly stood on the sideline of my life, I would have seen that nothing bad was happening. My husband needed to “lose” his job, because it was no longer serving him. And he was my mirror; I was in the process of letting go of my old job to make room for my life’s work. Had I been able to put my emotions aside to look at the big picture, I would have been able to see what my Higher Self was really showing me. Fear wouldn’t have clouded my vision. But from where I stood, it was impossible to see what I was really looking at.
Spirit was saying, “Let go, let go, let go. Make room for all the good things that are on their way to you.” But in all the noise, in all the confusion, I heard something else. I heard, “Hold on, hold on, hold on. Your life is being taken away from you.”
